This is a piece I chose to share with my writing group in our final meeting yesterday. It's still a little rough and is only about half the original section in my book but thought I'd throw it out there anyway.
True Nature
That man who does not believe that each day contains an earlier, more
sacred, and auroral hour than he has yet profaned, has despaired of life, and
is pursuing a descending and darkening way.
Thoreau
Throughout this memoir a number of recurring and related themes presented
themselves; a sense of wonder and awe, fleeting moments of pure bliss, an
awareness that all life is connected and interdependent.
…
The unifying theme of my journey is based on that sense of wonder that
visits each of us from time to time. During those few months when I inhabited
my little piece of paradise, I cannot say that a sense of wonder was my
constant companion, but she did visit more frequently than ever before, almost
on a daily basis, for the entire time. Not a constant companion, because her
visits are, by their very nature, all too fleeting. The mere act of recognition
and the subsequent urge to hold on to those moments and rejoice in their
presence sends her on her way again. Whether it be a snowflake gently floating
on the air, the beauty of the night sky, the swaying branches of a white pine
in a gentle breeze or the sweetly scented air after a spring rain, these
experiences defy description, mere words do not and cannot do them justice. The
experience has to be just that ‘an experience’ but please know that it was the
anticipation of such experiences that initially lured me there and, once there,
enriched my experience immeasurably.
…
But what are the insights to be ganed now that I am able to look back with
the advantage of hindsight? Did I come out of my experience a changed person, a
better person? The answer to both questions is a definitive “yes”.
Oh, I’m still the same introverted optimist with many of the same faults
and strengths I’ve always had. What changed was not so much this me, this
introverted optimist. Rather, I gained a new awareness of what it means to be
an integral part of the world I live in. And that is no small feat. By meeting
the daily challenges of a back to basics lifestyle I gained a new self
confidence and assuredness.
More importantly, on a spiritual level, I came out of the experience with a
new awareness of something I’d been seeking my entire adult life, a sense of
belonging, of being a part of the cosmic consciousness. Ironically, by seeking
solitude in isolation, I became more connected. In my attempt to separate
myself from the insane goings on of this crazy world, the same one that had
taken from me what mattered most, my wife, I ended up feeling closer to every
one and every thing.
If there is one thing which I have carried away from the experience, it is
the realization that all of these occurences throughout my life were glimpses
into the true nature of things. The seventeen months and the subsequent looking
back at the experience have brought an awareness to my conscious mind of just
how important they are to my spiritual development.
Is it any wonder then that my chosen path for this
chapter in my life was to immerse myself in the natural world, to make a home
far removed from the glass and concrete and pavement that are our cities? If I
was to find true joy and directly experience life at it’s most basic level, if
I was to rediscover that same wonder and sense of belonging and oneness with
everything that have visited me on previous occasions, then this would be the
time and the place to do it.
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